Wow…it has been more than 3 months I had not updated my blog. So many things had happened to me since then. Maybe it is not too late for me to welcome 2011 and say goodbye to 2010. (Really mean it by saying goodbye!)
I’d rather killed myself then reminisce 2010...that’s how bad it is. It was the biggest test in my 26 years of living. Too many tears were withered and hearts were broken. The worst part was… I’ve betrayed the trust of my only family and embarrassed them with such criminal. In my defence, I’ve already repented…honestly I did…but whether God accept it or not, I don’t know. Now, I’m on a rocking boat without compass…I’ve lost my way - no route to go to but I must keep on going just for the sake of surviving.
Dear mom and dad,
Please forgive me…I promise I will never hurt any of you again…. Yes, the mistake was judge but the damage cannot be undone. As guilty as I am to both you…I really want to move on with my life… I’ve lot more to do and explore about this world…so please mom, dad…….give me a chance to make it right… but I can only do it with your blessings.
Dear diary…
This past months had taught me a lot about life, most of it about relationship between me and God, families, my love one and friends. Life is not easy. There are many things to be considered, but as a person, we aren’t capable of pleasing everyone rite? We too had our own desire; wanting, dreams, and thoughts to be taken care of. Every mind works differently from one another. So don’t ASSUME bout anything or make our own judgement based on what you see and heard. If we are unsure, better ask than let it is… First, people that I had worked with are not so kind to me – they just want to see me collapse. Second, a bunch of friends that I thought of being my ‘good friends’ are not trustworthy at all – they abandoned me when I needed them the most. Third, family is my life – without them I’ll drown. Fourth, understanding and trust are the crucial key to make a long distance relationship works out. Fifth, if you want to be successful in your career, follow your dreams and not others.
But at the end of the day…there is only one wish that comes to my mind…
“How I wish my life is like the others... One that had non-drama, non-theatrical, non-conflict… no backstabbers, no break-ups, no lies, no guilt, no sins…….but only HAPPINESS in the world with the one they love…”
